Friday, January 23, 2009
im leaving my granny house in 10 minutes time.
but i still havent pack my things yet.
im going to miss her badly,
its not always i can meet her.
its not always i can sleep beside her like i always do last time.
i'll come over some other time granny .
of course, i will :D
22nd of January 2009
a day of hell and badlucks.
i lost my phone .
i lost his original 1GB memory card .
spare phone needed PUK CODE . =..=
im broke .
Someone spoke vulgarities in front of my Juniors. WTH !
lost somebody . ..
Heard something or someone or you know MENGILAI .
things are different for me.
im not the bitchy girl in school anymore.
not an attention seeker or anything.
im just a typical girl in sch,
But some ppls still Call me ShikinBitch in sch.
and i'll correct them .
i hate my past.
i gtg already.
dear god, please make today a much much better day for me .
11:55 AM
but i still havent pack my things yet.
im going to miss her badly,
its not always i can meet her.
its not always i can sleep beside her like i always do last time.
i'll come over some other time granny .
of course, i will :D
22nd of January 2009
a day of hell and badlucks.
i lost my phone .
i lost his original 1GB memory card .
spare phone needed PUK CODE . =..=
im broke .
Someone spoke vulgarities in front of my Juniors. WTH !
lost somebody . ..
Heard something or someone or you know MENGILAI .
things are different for me.
im not the bitchy girl in school anymore.
not an attention seeker or anything.
im just a typical girl in sch,
But some ppls still Call me ShikinBitch in sch.
and i'll correct them .
i hate my past.
i gtg already.
dear god, please make today a much much better day for me .
11:55 AM
Thursday, January 22, 2009
i lost my Nokia 5610 phoneee !
omg i feel so dont know what to do.
all important stuffs inside.
pictures, and MUSIC!
OH, YOU KNOW HOW I CANT LIVE WITHOUT MUSIIICCCCCC !
ps. to all surfers,bridge leaders, coralites, loyang-pians, mac cafe, macdonalds, ive changed num, ask me for it.
10:34 PM
omg i feel so dont know what to do.
all important stuffs inside.
pictures, and MUSIC!
OH, YOU KNOW HOW I CANT LIVE WITHOUT MUSIIICCCCCC !
ps. to all surfers,bridge leaders, coralites, loyang-pians, mac cafe, macdonalds, ive changed num, ask me for it.
10:34 PM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
ive been at my grandma's house for a few days already.
and daily life changes .
what do i mean by that?
uhuh, let me explain it to you.
every morning , breakfast is already served for me.
air-conditioned room.
comfortable bed.
wireless connection everywhere.
no disturbance.
peace.
no naggings from anyone.
aweeessssssssssssooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeee.
haha. okay shikin lame.
boring tau !
LLA PROJECT DUE ON THE 4TH FEB.
better get starting shikinnnnnnnnnnn !
9:58 PM
and daily life changes .
what do i mean by that?
uhuh, let me explain it to you.
every morning , breakfast is already served for me.
air-conditioned room.
comfortable bed.
wireless connection everywhere.
no disturbance.
peace.
no naggings from anyone.
aweeessssssssssssooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeee.
haha. okay shikin lame.
boring tau !
LLA PROJECT DUE ON THE 4TH FEB.
better get starting shikinnnnnnnnnnn !
9:58 PM
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
a big breakdown for me.
weak, speechless, shy.
it wasnt easy to accept it.
but i cant say anything.
im at fault.
too much chances for me.
and i've misuse every opportunity.
Confused, lost, conquered me.
im a daydreamer.
hoping for things that might not come back.
how i hate my attitude.
how i hate my pampered-ness.
how i hate my laziness.
how i hate everything.
and how much i do hate Shikin.
12:58 AM
weak, speechless, shy.
it wasnt easy to accept it.
but i cant say anything.
im at fault.
too much chances for me.
and i've misuse every opportunity.
Confused, lost, conquered me.
im a daydreamer.
hoping for things that might not come back.
how i hate my attitude.
how i hate my pampered-ness.
how i hate my laziness.
how i hate everything.
and how much i do hate Shikin.
12:58 AM
Saturday, January 17, 2009
4 days ive never been updated.
Jan Orientation .
been skipping classes, got leave form mah ! :D
ive seen more and more minahs and mats.
its like at city hall if you were to step into ite College East.
havent been hanging out lately.
BL thingy always end late .
shout, scream, cheer, run around, everything.
all i wanted to do is just sleep after a hectic day.
im glad its over now, until April.
exam's just around the corner.
have to start mugging soon.
stomach ache for the pass 2 days!
how irritating can it be?
arggghhh!
currently drinking Nescafe,
its just get better everytime i drink it.
muahahahahaha .
boredom fuyoo fuyooooooooooooooooo !
its been 3 days i never meet him!
oh yes if i meet him, i'll hug him like i never do.
i miss himmm !
he's kinda busy lately with his upcoming events, same goes to me.
Sacrificies have to be made right baby ?
hope to see you today .
i love you!
2:30 PM
Jan Orientation .
been skipping classes, got leave form mah ! :D
ive seen more and more minahs and mats.
its like at city hall if you were to step into ite College East.
havent been hanging out lately.
BL thingy always end late .
shout, scream, cheer, run around, everything.
all i wanted to do is just sleep after a hectic day.
im glad its over now, until April.
exam's just around the corner.
have to start mugging soon.
stomach ache for the pass 2 days!
how irritating can it be?
arggghhh!
currently drinking Nescafe,
its just get better everytime i drink it.
muahahahahaha .
boredom fuyoo fuyooooooooooooooooo !
its been 3 days i never meet him!
oh yes if i meet him, i'll hug him like i never do.
i miss himmm !
he's kinda busy lately with his upcoming events, same goes to me.
Sacrificies have to be made right baby ?
hope to see you today .
i love you!
2:30 PM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
i feel so weak.
and im not pretty sure why.
i didnt do anything sweaty or tiring today.
perhaps my body just need enough rest.
but i need sleeping pills man !
okay, im weak to even type.
so gyeah, update soon.
im missing him badly.
8:37 PM
and im not pretty sure why.
i didnt do anything sweaty or tiring today.
perhaps my body just need enough rest.
but i need sleeping pills man !
okay, im weak to even type.
so gyeah, update soon.
im missing him badly.
8:37 PM
Monday, January 12, 2009
To be precise, i never need to do house chores. i never need to wash my own clothes, clean the dishes, clean the house, cook, everything ! Sounds fun right ? yes, indeed it is ! But, how long things are gonna be this way ? i dont know how to cook, even to cook a rice needs me to check the cooking book or ask my girlfriends. It sucks when a girl , dont even know what and how to do simple stuffs like that. I dont have a maid, only single mother to do everything for her three children. And i have to say that i do proud to have a strong mother like her.
this short story happen just yesterday and it changed my life wholly.
my mum met with an accident.
she's fine of course but the part i couldnt imagine that it was sooo bad that she flied off from the motorcycle.
she got a deep cut both her legs and hand that it needs to be sew ( or idk what to call ).
it was eerie for me to see the benang ( idk in english call what ), sticking out.
OUCH!
so, she got one week off and all the way she just lay in bed looking so pale and weak.
she cant move her body too much.
so all her responsbility was in me.
which means, i have to takecare of my brothers, me and mum.
i have to be home early to make sure my brothers finished their homeworks.
i have to iron their school clothes.
buy them food.
wake up early in the morning to make breakfast for them.
alot more.
it was tough i have to say.
and mum have been doing this all this years.
it's not that easy that i imagined.
so now i do understand what kind of typical life she have.
she cant spend time outside shopping or clubbing or anything.
and shes still staying strong.
im truly proud of you mum.
thank you for everything.
i love youu !
loads of love,
your daughter .
6:29 AM
We started as friends , just some normal typical guy friend i had. it had been more than four years we have been friends. Never expected we could go this far. and now, we've been more than three months as love partners. I have to admit its hard to adapt to it baby. i mean having to change my way approaching to you , acting in front of our friends , everything . We do fights over litle things. But, isnt it normal for couples to fight ? without the love and without your support,patience,putting so much trust in me, i dont think we're able to get this far dear. This past three months do make me understand you better, you likes and dislikes. Your personality, almost every single things about you. And i hope you do understand me alot more too .. Being with you is soo much different than being other of my ex's. All they do is doing romantic stuffs and all those typical gf bf kinda shit. you feel me ? Not only you treat me as your gf but also your best friend. and i loike that way. it makes me soo much comfortable with you :D
i hope we last :D
i lovveeee youuu .
1:57 AM
Friday, January 09, 2009
it was a sunny day.
i cant bear to even get out of bed.
didnt go to school.
been bloghopping since just now.
quite a boring day today.
mum's coming home soon.
so, grounded till 9pm.
haiya. feel so tortured.
hoping to meet you today.
to be exact, tonight.
to spend the whole night with you.
perhaps, catching a late night movie?
bowling?
cycling?
hanging out at the beach?
staring at those beautiful night stars?
forget abt it shikin, you re broke .
im never good at planning.
but i wanna be with him tonight.
well i hope he could forgive me.
3:56 PM
i cant bear to even get out of bed.
didnt go to school.
been bloghopping since just now.
quite a boring day today.
mum's coming home soon.
so, grounded till 9pm.
haiya. feel so tortured.
hoping to meet you today.
to be exact, tonight.
to spend the whole night with you.
perhaps, catching a late night movie?
bowling?
cycling?
hanging out at the beach?
staring at those beautiful night stars?
forget abt it shikin, you re broke .
im never good at planning.
but i wanna be with him tonight.
well i hope he could forgive me.
3:56 PM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
sometimes i wonder to myself
will i change ?
can i change ?
how to change ?
what to change ?
all those simple questions
bothering me.
and it irritates me
god, please help me change.
for the better.
i want to make my family, friends and you happy.
8:32 PM
will i change ?
can i change ?
how to change ?
what to change ?
all those simple questions
bothering me.
and it irritates me
god, please help me change.
for the better.
i want to make my family, friends and you happy.
8:32 PM
its been long since ive updated.
and there's alot of changes in my life.
changing for the better.
in term's of character and attitude.
sometimes i wish i could turn back time.
and mend things back.
but i'll take it as a lesson learnt.
and not to repeat the history again.
somehow i wish you are here.
cos im missing you badly.
and i know its just hard for us.
but all i need.
is you to be always there for me.
insyaallah, things would get better.
3months and 2 days.
may we last long dear.
friends.
i know ive changed.
but always remember
every single one of you.
will always stay in my heart.
and i thank you all for being there
for me till now.
dearest mum.
i know things have been very hard for you
this days.
and im glad that you are still strong .
i know you really care about me.
you dont want me to be a bad child right ?
trust me, i will takecare of myself mum.
i will.
8:19 PM
and there's alot of changes in my life.
changing for the better.
in term's of character and attitude.
sometimes i wish i could turn back time.
and mend things back.
but i'll take it as a lesson learnt.
and not to repeat the history again.
somehow i wish you are here.
cos im missing you badly.
and i know its just hard for us.
but all i need.
is you to be always there for me.
insyaallah, things would get better.
3months and 2 days.
may we last long dear.
friends.
i know ive changed.
but always remember
every single one of you.
will always stay in my heart.
and i thank you all for being there
for me till now.
dearest mum.
i know things have been very hard for you
this days.
and im glad that you are still strong .
i know you really care about me.
you dont want me to be a bad child right ?
trust me, i will takecare of myself mum.
i will.
8:19 PM