Dramatic Life

hari pertemuan

2009-12-14T00:32:00.001+08:00

23TH 23TH 23TH.......................................

2009-09-12T05:54:00.003+08:00

99/132 means you scored a distinction for doing stupid things!

NOT STUPID
Level 1
(x) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
(x) Drank Alcohol

Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x ) Been Dumped (Alwayss. )
( x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
( x) Been In A Fist Fight

Level 3
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
(x) Skipped School

( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die

Level 4
(x) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your Facebook Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain (I wish i could! >.<) (x) Been On A Plane
(x ) Thrown Up From Drinking

Level 5
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Facebook
(x ) Been in a Mosh Pit

Level 6
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
( ) Love/loved Someone Who You Cant Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
( ) Made A Snow Angel

Level 7
( ) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
( ) Gone mudding
(x) Played Dress Up

Level 8
( ) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves (Find me a pile of leaves first.)
( ) Gone Sledging
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

Level 9
(x) Watched The Sun Set
( ) Felt An Earthquake
( ) Killed A Snake (I will run when i see a snake, still want to kill it, siao)

Level 10
(x) Been Tickled
( ) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Been Cheated on
(x) Been Misunderstood ( Hell lots!)

SO FAR: 28

Level 11
(x) Won A Contest
() Been Suspended From School
(x) Had Detention
(x ) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

Level 12
( ) Had / Have Braces
( ) Eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( ) Danced in the moonlight

Level 13
(x ) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime (does fighting includes?)
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
( ) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

Level 14
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
( x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
( ) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

Level 15
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
( ) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
( x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 42

Level 16
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made a Prank Phone Call
(x ) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose (disgusting you know!!)
(x) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 46

Level 17
( ) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
(x) Watched The Sun Set/ Sun Rise With Someone You Care/Cared About

(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach or anywhere

Level 18
( ) Crashed A Party
( ) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
( ) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 49

Level 19
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge (Crazy!)
( ) Swore at the teacher, in front of them
( ) Swam With Dolphins

Level 20
(x ) got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole/Freezer/ice Cube

( ) Kissed A Fish
(x ) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
(x) Sat On A Roof Top

Level 21
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
( ) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( x) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours (Siao! No need money ah!)
(x) Recently stayed Up for a while talking to someone you care about

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
( ) Climbed A Tree
( ) Had/Been In A Tree House.
(x) been scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

Level 25
(x) Believed In Ghosts
( ) Have had More Than 30 Pairs Of Shoes( i wished!!)
( ) Gone Streaking
( ) Visited Jail

Level 26
(x ) Played Chicken
(x) Been Pushed into a pool with all your clothes on

(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger

( ) Broken A Bone
( ) Been Easily Amused (Very easy..)

Level 27
( ) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video/got asked to make one
( ) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

Level 28
( ) Mooned/Flashed Someone
( ) Had Someone Moon/Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dipping
(x) Been Kicked Out Of Your House

(x) Tried to hurt yourself

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving/Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
( ) Black-Mailed Someone
( ) Been Black Mailed

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

Level 32
( ) Been shot at/or at gunpoint
( ) Had sex in the rain
( ) Flattened someones tires
( ) Rode your car/truck until the gas light came on
( ) Got five dollars or less worth of gas

SHIKIN SCORES 72/132.

Shit, i didnt score well,

and tips?

2009-09-10T05:52:00.002+08:00

MY LATEST ADDICTION

i've known you less than a year & ive become so addicted to you. there is just something about you, that interest me so much that every night, not seeing you would get me so miserable throughout the day. its you facebook, yes you. the reason for me to facebook is not for me to flirt with guys or anything, no. i could definitely post my lovely memories in there, i could simply let out my feelings and hear out people's opinions. Since i've been in facebook, i've met alot of people of different range, fanatic's, weird, outstanding, famous peoples. I've even met my kindergarten friend ! not only that my fellow friends, all kinds of information will be updated through facebook! you tell me, facebook could get me back on track with latest news and even gossips. krekrerkrerkekre. but its not a bad thing isnt it. people have their rights to post anything, you want to cry out loud also can, just dont be surprised if there are some strangers who actually cared about you.

so now facebook, please dont be stubborn

2009-09-08T06:32:00.003+08:00

thank you to that someone who cheers up my seven

chat soon new friend (:

2009-09-08T05:04:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the 7th. & everytime, i would be hoping for the day, hoping the day would turn out great you know. But i feel like its a normal day.

baby, why isit so hard for you to just reply me a ok or at least wish me back or something.

is it so hard for you to just spare just a few minutes for our relationship?

you leave me hanging and kept me hoping. & i just hate that.

i have always been patience in this relationship, please dont take this as an opportunity for you to take advantage of my feelings.

im really speechless in our relationship.

you've always think that i've played behind your back and stuffs . you've always pick fights and its all because of the little things ive doneee.

but omgg, again if you say i've busted you, im so going to hit your head damn hard till you realised and appreciate me

i really dont know what to say.

hais

2009-09-04T06:28:00.004+08:00

Bulan Ramadhan standard routine.

Tidur sampai 6pm. on laptop, go facebook chit chat sane sini, masak air dan kemas bilik.

lepas buke, mandi dan keluar.

yang penting, rokok have to be lighted, walk towards the connector to Pasir Ris. Meet up with the rest at 8.30pm, lepak here and there. Pukul 2am balik rumah, on the laptop until 5am, wake the family up, sahur, go down smoke 2 sticks. drink plain water, brush teeth and sleep.

and everyday routine goes the same , macam mane tk gemuk shikin?

2009-08-06T10:13:00.002+08:00

Glad everything is over. People who cant take to my comments, pls fuck off. Cos i dont give a hack about you anymore. I believe i am mature enough to think what is right for me . Cos i believe things arent going to stop if no ones give in right?

Giving in doesnt mean that i've lost.

But, to clear all misunderstandings.

Because i totally have better things to do.

Wanting to be famous in a blog? haha. I don't need that in my life. I guess you all are my paparazzi.

But, i dont need one :D

All i need is supportive friends; and i already got it . Perfect.

Farah, faizal and imran and zany.

thank you for the support.

2009-08-05T11:30:00.002+08:00

if i ever had a shot of becoming a famous blogger

i'd rather be an inspirational and vivacious ones;

than someone who influences and encourage others to hate,

be it intentionally or unintentionally

thumbs up for you girl!

2009-08-05T10:50:00.002+08:00

niniepasserby: relax...arshanti is not the creator.. and we r trying to help too dem by pointing out our views.. =)
we are cool. no worries :D
i just feel tt its not right. that's all :D

5 Aug 09, 07:54

Passerby: If she wants to continue the fansite, let her be. Who are you to tell her to close it down? It's her blog.
Shikinhoney: LOL! if you take it too hard then i really dont know what to say. HAHA. gerl, its just a joke. well we are just trying to make things fair for everyone. this blog, honestly, is like finding faults with the minahs. can i ask you something ? did the minahs disturb you ? yes, they memalukan masyarakat melayu, but this blog is not helping. Exposing more stupid things about minahs. kan lagi memalukan ? there's always other solutions to it, but definitely not posting their wrong-doings.

5 Aug 09, 07:51

Passerby: Why should anti-minah & kenings close down? Are you saying that you're one?
Shikin honey: Me and zany is definitely not one of them, kening MacDonald and everything. No, you cant just judge the book by its cover.They might be minahs, with their outfits and their way of talking. But isnt that just the outside of them? Not all minahs are mean. Do you like it if e.g you were to talk like Malay British or something. And ppl dont like it, so they make a fansite too. i mean like seriously lah, let them be.You all might able to talk about this thingy about minah and stuffs, but can you tell them face to face? Don't be a follower( sorry if it hurts you or something ). But cant we let our feelings out? Like what ninie says, we're just pointing out our views. if you dont like my saying then its okay, no loss or anything.

2009-08-04T16:04:00.005+08:00

i should start posting something in my blog. i think its dying of "daily posts".

So Shikin; hows life?

Pretty normal i guess. But, i feel something is wrong about me.

Yes, i think its me all along. Creating problems and blaming others. aku rasa this is all me.

Dan aku tidak tahu masaalah nya.

"i cant figure myself out". & that's pretty bad. Having a body; with my soul inside. And i don't know my souul. It's like living without knowing the purposes of living ?

SOMEONE HELP ME.

2009-07-23T14:43:00.003+08:00

ohh i cant wait

25.07.09 - Surfer's Town Outing ( its been ages since i've been there ). Dress to impress :)

26.07.09 - Limited K's something like celebrating somethinggg. haha, its a SURPRISE :)

31.07.09 - Swimming at Samantha's Crib . ohh cant wait for the Japanese water game.

05.08.09 - Pay day for Mc Cafe !

07.08.09 - Confession day & 10 months with baby ! :)

08.08.09 - OMGG! Attachment finissshhhh ! PAY-DAYYYYYYYY!

09.08.09 - Surfer's Outing For National Day ! Lets be PATRIOTIC ! :)

& moree to comeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :) B)

2009-07-14T20:21:00.001+08:00

Maybe you dont care about me anymore.

2009-07-14T11:29:00.003+08:00

Didie's Partyy on Saturday.
hell yeah ! everything goes well ! Except for the making of the props and all lah.
Ape ke tidak, it was raining heavily and i had to do the pictures thingy at the gents room.
Wth, so tidak senonoh. I got wet cos the set up was all in the swimming pool. Got to eat my all time favourite PUFF. Oh, can i go bugis again ?
for Pictures and Video's please go to http://www.facebook.com/home.php#/honeygaga?ref=profile or Samantha's photobucket.

Prawning on Sunday.
first time i go prawning, i dont even know tt people fish for prawn too ?
Atiqah, Hisyam and Chikong picked me, Faizal and Wan up at the esso bustop and proceeded there.
Bad and Baby joined us too.
11pm to 5am, sitting there hmm, listening songs ? watching them fish and blahblahblah.
i got to admit its fun ah when you hold the rod and you know the nervous feeling came cause its PRAWN!! The claws and everything, very geli.
The dogs over there is sooo HUGE, like really HUGE.
you guys got to look at Baby's expression. haha, so cute.
Alot of mosquitoes. like really alot, BIG ONES.
Overall rating for Prawning ; 2.5 over 5.

2009-07-10T12:55:00.002+08:00

Hopes went down on friday night.
its cancelled :(

hang out with baby, wan, faizal, hisham and rusty yesterday behind my block.
nice T-shirt you got there baby, haha.
4th time we have food fiesta.
Who else would i have this occasion with?
definitely wan and faizal. hahahaha
& i ate nasi lemak at night. Masih jual!

Meeting at surfers today regarding's didie birthday :)
guess alot of handworks need to be done guys!

Lastly, you else would i have seaweed occasion with ?
ATIQAHRUSTY!

there she goes again,

Seaweed for breakfast.

it's RustyMermaid.

2009-07-09T13:10:00.001+08:00

seaweed for breakfast ? hahaha, you crap the hell out of me ! hahaha!

atiqah oh atiqah.

2009-07-09T12:55:00.002+08:00

Attachment
OMG OMG, FOUR MORE WEEKS AND IM DONE.
& i cant wait to step out from the office with the luxury cheque on my hand.
gosshh.

Johor Night
well, its tomorrow guys :) HAHA, pathetic sey shikin. its been a year since i went overseas.
& this time, im going it with my friends . ohh, i cant wait. Seafood, sheesha, shopping. here i come; hehe.

Saturday Outing
Surfers celebrating Didie's birthday. oh well, i hope its gonna at town. cos honestly, its been LONG since i dress up. ape ke tidak, work and lepak, work and lepak. Dont say ive lost my sense of FASHION. worst nightmare!

& Mac Cafe
gonna start earning some money shikin ! working on sunday, 5pm to 11pm at terminal 3. do come down ppl, cos its not easy to see me working ! :) FRAPPE, CHEESECAKE, CAPPUCINO? name it :)

and after tt, work and work and work .
pfft.

2009-07-09T12:52:00.001+08:00

07102008

the first time? remember that moment ?

2009-07-08T11:17:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was the 7th.

Confession Day and my Supposed to be 9 months with him.

and it was quite fun.

i was out since morning; went to the doctor.

met hasif; watch cartoons with him. Ride to Mok's block; he tag along with us :). had a bumpy and scary ride cause all that is in their mind, is SPEED RIDING.haha. met hasif's mummy at her work place, WELL, have you guys heard of Changi Business Park ?

Ride again to ubi get some payment done and checked out some cool bikes. Ride to Kallang to some Motor place. & geylang to get ciggs. Had dinner at Bedok Corner :) Met atiqah and hisham behind my block; we all ate alot alot of seaweeds. Talk craps and blahblahblah. and headed home.

thank you hasif for a great day, its fun exploring new places with you.

& Mok, its nice to talk to you :)

happy supposed to be 9mths hasif. i still do.

can i have more of yesterday ?

2009-07-02T15:02:00.000+08:00

I love to throw things out of my window. From bits of eraser to small crumbs of paper to torn envelopes to pieces of cloth and opened packages to a large MacDonald’s' cokelite...the list goes on and on. Its like a habit, a bad one, but I do it everyday. Do you?

2009-07-02T15:00:00.001+08:00

Ni shi mei de
Kau cantik ok

2009-07-02T14:52:00.002+08:00

to my dearest bestie ;

YOU GOTTA BE STRONG ! & I KNOW YOU CANN.

FIGHT IT AND YOU'LL WIN.

I HAVE FAITH IN YOU BESTFRIEND!

GET WELL SOON !

2009-06-24T09:38:00.004+08:00

im sorry for troubling you guys for all this while. I knew i had too much problems with me. But, you guys are still there for me, until now. I would keep myself shut, i would stop telling you guys about my problems. What are friends for right? Friends are your listening ears, friends . But again, im sorry, I will stop telling you my problems. I will stop; im sorry.

I appreciated every single thing you all have done for me. & i know how much you guys wanted to help me. But, things are just getting worse and worser for me.
Im under pressure, and yes i gotta admit that. Why must every confession talk must be about me ? Why is my topic choosen , even there's alot more friends you guys could talk about ? Why ? are you scared to talk about another person ? Or, you guys picked me cos im the easiest to matikan. Guys, please treat everyone the same. I got a fragile heart. Tell me how would you feel if 10 people surrounding you and just blurt out all those disagreements you had ? Can you imagine me, alone carrying all those stones you guys put behind my back? me, alone ?? those big stones are all of your disagreements. You guys tell me how do you feel if you're in my shoes ? Like it ? Some dissagreements could just be talked to me right ?? Why must it be informed to everyone ? I have a maruah too. Even though im the smallest, you guys dont have the right to disrespect me. Like ive said, Don't matikan me in front of all people,
cos you guys will never know how painful it is, my friends.
I've let out every single things i got for you all. Eveyone will know. Terase ? like it ?
If you really want a confession talk, then do it the right way. For others who kept to themselves about other friends , dont talk behind their back and complain. Say it, if you all can say it to me , why cant you guys do the same thing ? That's what i called confession talk. But you guys, dont follow the rules of it.

& you guys wanna know why confession day is held every month but not every week ? because we want that person to think through and understand themselves better. But what did you guys did ? every new topic, confession time.
It will never help.

2009-06-23T20:58:00.001+08:00

THREE CHEERS FOR FIVE YEARS.

i swear tt you dont have to go baby.

2009-06-17T11:37:00.002+08:00

somehow i love yesterday, 17th.
its something like a continued confession day.
and this time, its just me, farah, sam, faizal and wan.
Amazingly, we confessed alot.
& im glad that farah is the only person who understands what im trying to convey yesterday. it really makes me feel better lah.
& im glad wan is able to feel faizal.
Today we will change.
you will be surprised.
& to faizal, i hope you too, as we believe you can.
my dearest wan , ive updated :)
oh gosh, please let this Saturday happen.
& please gimme back my Surfers.

2009-06-16T15:58:00.002+08:00

Tell me that you miss me.
Tell me that you miss my kisses.
Tell me that you miss my hugs.
Tell me that you miss my smile.
Tell me that you miss my voice.
Tell me that you miss us.
Tell me lover.

2009-06-15T17:22:00.000+08:00

FRIES U LAH

2009-06-15T17:17:00.001+08:00

LQTM.

HAHA, LQTM.

2009-06-09T11:08:00.002+08:00

Maybe i should listen to him.
He's the closest to him among all.
He knows him too well.
No point waiting.
Its over; i dunt want to be "shiok sendiri".
But i wonder; am i not pretty enough?
is she much more better than me?
is she?

2009-06-08T15:10:00.000+08:00

aku hanya manusia biasa;

2009-06-08T13:28:00.005+08:00

There's two sides of me .
The bad Shikin and the good Nora.
Majority wins.
And you'll get to pick.
The bad Shikin will be a bitch; a slut; .
The good Nora will be a very good one. Trust me; she will be a good one.
So, friends; blogger; pick your choice.

p.s, pick wisely.

2009-06-08T10:05:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was the 7th June .
7th is the day where we official called ourselves as couples.
& we have been looking forward for every date stated 7th.
But yesterday 7th, its only me alone looking upon it.
Alone, hoping for it, hoping for him.

Perhaps i should move on. Perhaps i should try my luck one last time.
who knows ?
Everytime i take a step to move on from it, i failed.
Repeatedly fail.
Even taking out the ring from my finger for just a few minutes;
it makes me feel so insecure.

what else can i do to prove my sincerity in you;

i wouldnt have any doubts to cut myself and show you my heart;
even it means scarificing my life just to prove to you how much i love you.

its too difficult for me to handle this alone.
even i should accept the fact; i mean; nothing is impossible right ?

I hope you watch the video .

2009-06-07T15:47:00.002+08:00

happy supposed to be 8 monthsary.
i miss you alot.
& yes, i still do love you.

To my bestie (Wan) and Hakim, kay indeed, the three of us.
Happy 3 months of friendship :)

2009-06-05T13:37:00.001+08:00

The Big Bold & Beautiful Earthlings

2009-06-05T13:28:00.001+08:00

" To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness."
Woody Allen

2009-06-04T10:03:00.002+08:00

Firstly, i would like to congratulate, four of my babies,
Wan : You're able to be patient and strong. And you take it as a part of life. Now, you're much more happier being able forget the past. Im proud of your bestboi. Im really proud of you. You deserve better :)

Herda : How happy am i to see you get back with Salleh. Im glad tt you guys are able to talk things out and solve everything. Im pretty sure, you guys have higher hills to climb baby. So herda, you're strong enough. No worries, both of you will do perfectly fine with the help of each other :)

Farah & Sam : I know both of you went through alot of ups and downs together right ? And both of you are able to solve it together. Both of you let out your feelings towards each other, and that makes you guys understand each other more. That's the thing i like in your relationship. Im glad that you guys are okay back. To farah, you're a strong girl, im sure you can handle this right :). And to Sam, imm sooo happy for you , seriously. Your baby still love you, rest assure. May you guys last long :)

Love isnt that easy to handle. Maybe im just jealous, not because im jealous seeing them able to get back together and stuffs. But, me ? Not able to handle love. Not able to talk things out with him. Not able to achieve what my friends had :(
Sometimes i wish im in my friends position :(

But im happy for you all :)

2009-06-02T13:28:00.002+08:00

Do not worry bloggers. i wont shout and complain for the time being. maybe because i already had my own time to chill. Amazingly, for 6 days straight, i would be proceeding home straight after work. Not because im tired or anything, i just wanna have my own time with my family at home. And to my dearest herda ! i didnt Paitau okehhh. No worry girl, i did study too for my o levels :) This have been going fine. Not really fine, but okayy lah. Trying to put aside all my problems and at the same time solving it also. Practically, i still havent move on yet. Which im planning not to. But idk myself. kayblahblahblah. update soon.

2009-05-25T12:15:00.002+08:00

" It doesnt matter if you try and try and try again, and fail. It does matter if you try and fail, and fail to try again.", quoted Danial Nos.

2009-05-25T09:26:00.002+08:00

what happen to us ?

where's the trust that we've built for 7mths?

dear god, please make things better. please.

2009-05-22T17:06:00.001+08:00

GO AHEAD. HATE ME ALL YOU WANT.
COS THATS WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO.
TO HATE ME DEN YOU LOVE ME.
LOVE DOES NOT EXIST IN MY DICTIONARY.
SO, HATE ME ALL YOU WANT .
I DONT WANT AND I DONT NEED LOVE. PERIOD.

2009-05-22T12:31:00.002+08:00

IM SORRY COS I CANT STOP NAGGING ABOUT IT.
I JUST WANNA CLEAR MY MIND OF.
IT HELPS ALOT.
NO ONE WOULD EVER WANT TO LISTEN TO MY NAGS.
SO JUST BEAR WITH ME. AND I DONT WANAA HEAR ANY COMMENTS.
I JUST FEEL LIKE GOING OVERSEAS WHERE NO ONE CAN FIND ME AND I SCREAM OUT LOUD AND ENJOY THERE!
YES, WHEN I GET MY BURSARY MONEY I SHALL GO !
PERHAPS, BALI ? WOOOHHH. I'VE BEEN WANTING TO GO THERE.
ITS A VERY COOLL ISLAND.
OH MUMMY PLEASE LET ME GO THERE!

2009-05-22T11:42:00.004+08:00

GRRRRRR!
GO AWAY FROM ME. FAR FAR AWAY.
IM TELLING THIS TO EVERYONEEE!
GGOO FAR FAR AWAY SO THAT I WONT SEE YOUR FACES.
IM WARNING YOU, DONT YOU ALL EVER HURT ME AGAIN COS I HAD ENOUGH.
DONT EVER TAKE MY CHALLENGES COS I SWEAR YOU WILL REGRET!
I WOULD HAUNT YOU TILL IM SATISFIED WITH IT !
TALK BEHIND MY BACK, COS I DONT GIVE A FCUKING HECK ABOUT IT.
SAY THAT IM A BITCH , AND I WILL PUNCH YOU.
COS IM NOT ONE .
WHY CANT YOU ALL ACCEPT ME FOR I AM AND RESPECT ME TOO?!
DO I LOOK LIKE AN ALIEN OR ANIMAL TILL YOU ALL HAVE TO MISTREAT ME.
DONT ASK ME WHY IM LIKE THIS.
ITS ALL ANSWERED IN MY BLOG.
I REPEAT! DONT ASK ME WHETHER IM OK OR WHAT OR ALL THE BULLSHIT STUFFS.
COS I WILL IGNORE YOU.
JUST MAKE ME HAPPY FOR ONCE!

2009-05-22T11:11:00.003+08:00

how pathetic my life would get.
how suck my life would be.
when will everything end.
when will i be happy.
WHEN ?!
WHY THERE'S LOVE IN THIS WORLD!
I HATE LOVE.
PEOPLE SAYS LOVE WILL MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOU'RE IN THE SKY.
BUT NOO. YOU GUYS ARE WRONG!
LOVE MAKES YOU MORE SHITTY !
YES, I HATE LOVE NOW.
AND YES I DONT WANT TO KNOW LOVE AGAIN.
WHY MUST YOU NEED LOVE?
OH WELL YOU CAN SURVIVE WITHOUT ANY LOVE.
YOU WILL BE MORE HAPPIER.
LOVERS ARE FOR LOSERS.
I DONT NEED LOVE .
ENOUGH OF EVERYTHING.
ENOUGH OF DATING.
ENOUGH OF FLIRTING.
ENOUGH OF LOVING.
ENOUGH OF KNOWING GUYS.
ENOUGH OF GETTING HURT.
ENOUGH OF GETTING BLAMED.
ENOUGH OF HEARTBROKEN.
ENOUGH OF CRYING.
ENOUGH!
I'VE MADE MYSELF CLEAR GUYS, DONT YOU EVER WANT TO KNOW ME.
DONT YOU EVER WANT TO BE WITH ME.
COS I WONT BE WITH YOU.
ITS OVER FOR LOVE.

if there's a will, there's a way.

2009-05-19T15:19:00.004+08:00

Ive been thinking about my future lately. and ive made a deal to myself. That somehow i dunt want to have this kinda life. I wanna change myself. And thats when commitment play the role.
I will stop :

- Drinking alcohol, clubbing (only special occasions)
- Hanging out but doing nothing ( like playing cards, talk crap).
- Sleeping late ( unless im studying )
- Cutting down on my eating

2009-05-18T11:32:00.000+08:00

On your Mark, Get set and GO !

2009-05-15T16:31:00.002+08:00

Featuring my 3 besties cousins :)

i love afad and kenett <3

What happen honey?

2009-05-13T09:50:00.003+08:00

What happen?

-i lost someone i treasure alot.
-Mummy's favourite toy is back.
-my attitude change.
-my eating appetite gain and loss. it can change anytime.
-work environment sucks alot and caused alot of problems.
-unknown stupid numbers msging me, Pleasee, i dont want to know you.
-i tend to sleep late (movie marathon).

guys, this is not me.

You leave me hangin alone .

2009-05-08T13:42:00.004+08:00

I thought things would get better after the time off.
I thought you could feel much better after having all the space you want.
I've set high hopes in you.
But you throughly let me down.
I shouldnt blame everything on you.
Cos i know my mistakes too.
Im in a confused state now.
But i know i let you down.
All the chances you have given me.
I dont even carre.
But now somehow i wish i could turn things back.
Goodbye lover, and hello back friend.

O MG !

2009-04-27T10:04:00.002+08:00

I HAD A BIZZARE, CREEPY, DISGUSTING DREAM LAST NIGHT.

I want to be a 6-year old girl again can mummy ?

2009-04-23T13:16:00.004+08:00

Work life is stressful.
Sitting down at the office for 9 hours, playing the internet all day, having little assignments.
It makes me go insane.
It might sounds great to you.
But, it really test my mental patience.
Cry and go crazy because office life sucks.
Im tired of typing , thats why i rarely blog.
Im sick of looking at desktop, cos it makes me sick.
Yes, sick.

Rusty blog

2009-04-20T16:33:00.003+08:00

hello peeps !

its been uber long since i update.
now become RUSTY BLOG .

alot of things happen .
alot but i lazy to share.
hahaaha.
kinda busy.
living in a grown up life now.
im in the office now.
ive just started my attachment today.
its at Balestier.
wooooohhhhh. FAR lah sey.
working at office houurs which is at 9am till 6pm.
venue : Jalan Ampas Road
Company Name : Griffin Kinetic Pte Ltd
Needd to wearr office wear.
kinda busy now. need to send confirmation to customer
muahhkkks!

Random People go to Random Outing

2009-03-28T16:22:00.004+08:00

Went to Orchard the other day with Faizal Mok, Wan Hustler, Andreas Berry and featuring Khai Wok. We walked all the way from Far east all the way to City Hall Mrt.

the reason we went there; craving for Dougnuts and also Brownies.

Food Fiesta indeed :D

had a lot of fun thou.

Still at home. havent bathe yet. haha. Should be going out soon. As wan having a dance competition at Yuhua CC . and of course he needs me there, cos im the loudest and strongest Supporters. :D go WANY ! :D

Meet up with Baby yesterday again :D

oh yes yes, 5 months and 21 days.

still staying strong babyyyy.

wo ai ni :D

my babynitro :D :D

2009-03-27T17:00:00.002+08:00

Photosho0t #2

Just a memory to be kept inside.

2009-03-27T16:46:00.006+08:00

sorry ppl for not updating lately ppls.
been busy with alot of things.
went photoshoot here and there.
For our blogshop, owned my HONEY,SCOTTS and DRIPPER :D
and its finally launched !
do support us at www.shoplikeadiva.blogspot.com
be the SLAD :D

anyways, Sam and Farah went to Philippines already :(
1 fucking whole month okayyy.
no more Pakistan and Chong :(
missing them badly
come home soon guys. :(
so, we send them to Budget Terminal,
SURFERS JIWE :D
well , random topic but yeah, same gave us her photobucket password so we could take pictures from her camera album.
old old pictures were found !

im missing every moment we had together guys :(

2009-03-24T02:08:00.000+08:00

PICTURE OF THE YEAR 2009

Hello Little India !

2009-03-24T01:52:00.007+08:00

sorry for not updating.
lazy.
no mood.
lazy.

on the 22th of March,
me and wan actually wanted to go out.
just the both of us.
Just walk around and stuffs like that.
Last min, met up with farah, sam and faizal.
The couple wants to buy stuffs for the trip the next day.
Blah blah blah we walked ard.
went to Mustafa Centre.
and yes indeed, we were lost. LOST.
didnt know Singapore do have weird road names huh?
say heello to the ppl there:D

and yeah , our Little India Journey. a City of my friend, MOLE.

and yah yah after finding stuffs there, EATING TIME. WOOOHHHHH..
Food Fiesta for Faizal and Farah. 2 Masaalah Tosai each !

Limited Edition hotties .

2009-03-22T00:39:00.002+08:00

OH MY OH MY.
OLD PICTURES GUYS.
I MISS DANCING TOO :(

LB reunion party

2009-03-22T00:35:00.004+08:00

here's the pictures on the class pit guys :D
im missing every part of it.

Flabby skin go away !

2009-03-21T01:46:00.002+08:00

tips to lose weight :

Up the fruit and veg levels. Eat as much of them as you can. The colours green, orange and red are your friends.

Eat unprocessed food whenever possible.

Eat a lot at breakfast, a fair bit at lunch, and some at supper. Like a kind of food pyramid.

Supplement what you eat, even if it's unhealthy gack, by at least a litre of water a day, and one fruit smoothie, or some kind of fruit juice.

Don't eat nothing at breakfast, nothing/some at lunch and nothing/loads at supper. Ain't gonna work. You'll end up looking bad.

Cut down on sugar and fat. Don't freak out about salt - in most people, salt intake is neither here nor there. It's sugars and fats you need to cut down on.

Eat dried fruit or nuts as a snack.

Good foods include: eggs, all green/orange/red veg, all fruit, meat now and then (especially white meat like chicken), fish (tuna and salmon), yoghurts, rice, brown bread if you can get it, wholemeal pasta if you can get it... you can even have burgers and fries, just not all the time, and not where you have a burger and fries then feel guilty and don't eat anything else that day.

2009-03-20T23:12:00.002+08:00

Amazingly, i didnt thon today and i didnt come home late today.
Usually when there's always pit events, i would either be thoning or perhaps going home around 3 or 4?
Thats when the enjoyment starts with drinks and stuffs.

But NOT TODAY.
no alcohols.
just ciggas.

We had alot of fun thou.
for the BL pit, we had ice breaking and other activities.
For Class Pit, i have to admit it even thou we dont really click, but it went superb.
i bet eveyone had fun right?
missing all those graduating esp barney!!!
chrok chrok chrok! (inside joke).
gaga.

Velveeta is the name.

2009-03-20T02:17:00.002+08:00

okayy. i actually got nothing interesting to blog about.
but yeah, nanti orang complain lah tak update and wateva shit.
haha. (esp, faizal n wan) .
gaga.

today went to work as per normal.
had a very bad cramps, sumoree a lot of customers.
haiya. went home early ard 9. which i actually plan to meet wan at dome.
but haha, sorry wan.
met hasif and dan at their void decks.
chit chat here and there .
left around 2am.
and now blogging.
haha. nothing much actually.

Tomorrow would be a full day out for me.
having 2 pits, one is at East Coast and the other at Pasir ris.
Will have to rush here and there. Pfft.
Should be sleeping soon, but when i see my lappy, haha. You know.
P.s. i think im addicted to you lappy. Im going to name you, Velveeta.

2009-03-18T23:43:00.002+08:00

i was actually looking at websiites that sells cheap shoes. and my eyes came across to this BEAUTIFUL VAN'S SHOES that is selling at $50. i want to buyy. Unicorn, so my favourite :D
Very unlucky, i dont know how to buy. they have this icon dat states " Put to Cart". A moment of lost. Hmph!
ANYONE WHO HAS SEEN THIS SIMILAR SHOE, PLEASSEE TAG ME!
thank you :D

HERDA DADADADADADADADADA!
this name is stuck in my head till now, maybe i disturb her too much just now.
hehe. :D
p.s. WAN OWE ME 20CENTS .
gagagigigugugu.

to my so called (gigpartner),
you are no more my gig fren.
you are no more my moshpartner.
you are no more my laugh-out-loud girl.
you are no more my camwhore love.
you are no more my special friend.
no more.
officially over on the 18th of March 2009.

2009-03-18T02:30:00.002+08:00

can i be this skinny ?
can i get rid of all those fats in my stomach ?
can i can i can i ?
how long?
when will i start?
i cant help it, my body shape still stays the same even though i eat lesser and lesser everyday.
oh, fats, its really disturbing to have you in my life.
GO AWAY.

2009-03-17T01:54:00.004+08:00

beenn busy doing blogs and stuffs.
oh, my codes, why aare you so complicating?
haha, this craziness im having now is resulted from not eating today.
shikin only eat breakfast only. :D
diet lah humans.

EFFECTS AFTER CONFESSION TALK (7TH)

1) better communication between others; reduce the misunderstandings we had.
2) no more keeping of revenge; keeping things to yourself.
3) the appreciation of friendships .
4) Problems were solved.
5) i've never felt love like this .

So guys.. confession talk again ? :D

these past few weeks , ive been spending alot & alot of time with my lovely friends.
i really enjoyed myself.
creating stupid jokes.
laughing out loud.
yes, we did.
childish character i must say.

I'VE STARTED TO UNDERSTAND THE TRUE MEANING OF FRIENDSHIP.
thank you, wan, faizal, herda, eeka, and surfers.

to my love,
hope the both of us could be patient in everything we do.
i'll always be by your side.
this, i promise ; even if we were to become friends again.

WHO ARE YOU AND WHAT HAVE YOU DONE TO ZYK?

2009-03-15T03:38:00.002+08:00

you guys dont know how i can get easily bored.
serious, this 1 month holiday dat im having now, is SHIT.
i can start to feel how bored its going to be, without MONEY and HIM.
and yes, it taste sucky.
nothing exciting happen,
not shopping, not going to new places but just working.
pfffffttt.
this is life.

2009-03-12T12:46:00.001+08:00

Exam's are finally over. Oh how great this holiday could be. But currently, things are not going well,. So , not really in a mood for holiday. Cause like everyone's busy. Den you got no where to go. Just work, work and work ajerr.
Sorry guys for being inactive for awhile,
firstly, because im mugging for my exams!
secondly, nothing cool happen. =..=
thirdly, lazzzzy :D

waiting for RP results on the 6th March.
omeegooddd. takut bangett :S
will credits to wan if i gettt. :D
wan eh wan eh wan eh hustle aku ! ;D

2009-03-02T16:37:00.003+08:00

I LOVE TO POSE. GOT PROOOBB?
photoshoot #1

2009-03-01T13:27:00.004+08:00

Im sorry for not turning up for Mael's birthday pit.
im sorry for not meeting Faizal and Wan which im suppose to meet after work.
i was too tired.
It was the most terrible Sat to me.
People kept ordering and ordering and ordering.
But well the SALES was awesooommmmmeeee guys.
We wanted to hit 1.2K. But we only managed to hit 1K . (in 4 Hours okay!)
Good Job Mai and Munawarr.
My body is still cramp. Still feeling tired.
But, need to work again, 5 to 11.
well, here's some pictures we took , the craziness at work.

shikin loves to make heart shape for customers :D
tak menjadi latte art. haha.
shikin's all time favourite syrup :D

mai & shikin slacking at cafe.
after the slam came in, (omg look at our face)
place all haiya donno wat to say ah.
3 beanies smoking after the whole slammm
tired but happy..
omg guys! we reached 1K! hooorayyyy!

yesterday ard 3.05am i received a called for Hasif's mum.
i was sleeping back then but when i saw my phone miss calls, i thot i was dreaming.
i miss hasif.

attention Clubbers !

2009-02-28T12:47:00.001+08:00

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2009-02-28T11:53:00.003+08:00

good morning bloggers :D
im getting ready to go work which starts at 3pm.
well i dont wanna rush to work today.
im gonaa take my own sweety time :D
currently having bread spread with NUTELLA (yummy!) and hot Nescafe for breakfast.

boyfriend went to KL already yesterday..
got to meet him for a while :(
relax shikin, its just 3 days. You are going to do just fine.
haha, self motivation for myself.
well, waited for him to text me back yesterday
but i guess he's a little too busy .
its okayy. i took some pictures while waiting.
haha, kinda boredddd.

annndddd for this past few days ive been mugging for my exams .
here's my schedule,

HAHA, SEMANGAT SEY SHIKIN!
anddd a complete set to make your studying time work :)

2009-02-27T14:18:00.000+08:00

i think i need you.

2009-02-27T12:03:00.004+08:00

just came back from school.
felt so tired this morning.. My body so the lazy to get out of bed =..=
hope it wont rain again todayy.. im getting sick.
and these days ive been coughing badly, AH SMOKE TO MUCH AH SHIKIN.
alermakkk. haha.

i guess last week, we had a cafe meeting and so called reunion lah.
so here are the pictures :

ive been 1 year plus working at aiport mac cafe Ca3.
its like my second family.
ohhhhhhh. i so miss the old timers.
Ezzad, Haziq, AFDALLLL, TIRNNAAAA ! yerlah, tinggalkan aku ngan fidah sorang :(
reminder shikin: Sat youuuuurrrrreeee worrrking !

Boyfie going KL todayyyy.
gonna miss you.
make sure we meet today ah.
muahkkkksss!

2009-02-26T15:32:00.002+08:00

under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh...
wooohhh its raining heavily now.
you know when i was taking a bus home, is saw this drain flooded and the water splashed out so niccceee.
hehe, okay shikin cut the crap.
but sometimes its nice to have this kind of weather..
very the cosy at homee, A GOOD WEATHER TO SLEEPPP! :D

I WANNNA DANCE IN THE RAIN !!!!!!!!!!!

might be going out later, as usual study study studyyy..
okay rain, i want you to stop now.
but let the windy man stays.
haha, lol.

2009-02-25T17:48:00.002+08:00

trust me guys.
im going to be inactive again.
exams around the corner and i got alot to catch up.
sorry friends if i dont have time for you guys.
lets enjoy after exams alright.

to you.
i know i only think of myself.
putting aside to those who care alot of me.
it makes me realise how lucky i am to have someone like you.
deary, trust me.
i wont neglect in my studies.
i will focus more in my exams.
i wont let you down.
i promise.

Currently what am i doing now ??
hahahaha, im actually trying to find past years papers in the ite website.
searchhhhiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnngggg for it !
brb.

2009-02-24T20:06:00.002+08:00

hello .. what a boring day today.
went to make my new POSB card, haiya 5 bucks gone againn.
met up with my bro den went home together.. we were damn drenched.
me and bro went out to buy food for family, out of all places AFGANISTAN.
jauhh dokk.
ate and sleep.
and just woke up =..=
den now nothing to do..

ANW, i had my CA2 results .
WIM PRACTICAL i got A babyyy ! :D
PP i pass but i dont know how much i got.
My class advisor still have this revenge in me you know.
i dont know how to explain ah but he's discouraging me verbally.
ugrrrhhhh, i hate you philip Oo, or whatever name it is . I DONT CARE.

Perhaps im going down in 10 mins to study for my final year exams.
den can smoke ,hehe.
Cigarettes is the shit baby.
outs. :D

2009-02-23T22:50:00.004+08:00

hello peeps :D
im active back, for so long i menghilang.
sorry okay.
been effing busy lately with school, work, cca and stuffs.
the older you get the more responsibility you hold mahh.
so must understand. haha.
and after soo long, i dont need to use wireless connection.
phewww.

last friday i guess,
surfers had a picnic.
there's loads of foods, snacks alot ah.
expected around 20 people to come .
cos that was the only time where we can gather.
it was held at pasir ris park.
but guess how many turn up?
me, eeka, herda, wan, zyk and faizal aje. (total ppl who attend : 6 )
wth., but gyeah, we still carry on, had loads fun right guys ?
zyk cookies is damn damn POWER!
haha, good job girl.

Sunday (22th Feb), was atiqah (rusty) wedding.
dont be amazed she's only 17 .
but we were all happy for her youu know :D
surfers turned up, most of them.
so here's some pics, the rest is still in farah's cam.

and yah this past few days i've been camwhoring alot ( belum mandi, hehe)

till here guys :D
muahhhkkkssss !

2009-02-09T11:01:00.002+08:00

good morning !
wake up all you lazy bums !
lol.

amazingly, im in school this morning. Shocking right ?? Teacher is just right in front of me explaining stuffs and im the only one doing my own surfingaha. Anw, just now we i unbroard the bus. As per usual, i went for smoke, and theeennnn, this NEA man came to a group of friends smoking nearby me. Luckily of their friends ask the rest of us to go far away. Phewww. Luckyy sia .Kalau gitu takper tau, my shoe halfway the below torn. What a morning. This morning somemore got naggggss from mummy.
okay guys, i seriously need to start mugging and concentrating.
bye :D

2009-02-09T10:38:00.005+08:00

HELLO SHIKIN. I hope you read this. Nice right your blogskin? Haha. I know right. Cause it's me who re-edit every single thing. Yess. You are so dumb not to understand the codes. HAHA ! kidding aite. (: Well, where's my credit? Ohh, not only that. You still owe me another credit for helping you guys out with the mixing? Remember? Well, you should remember. So yeahh. I want both of my credits, say AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. Thank you so much. ((:

& not to forget, you PROMISE me that you'll meet me today, Monday 9 February 2009. & yes, you should keep to your promises. Make sure you meet me today uhh !

Signing out,
WAN.

PS: Shikin is not the one blogging this post. It is me who is the one blogging. Ohh, just this post only.

2009-02-08T12:51:00.004+08:00

Bugis Street here we come !

well, its been so long ive never go town. and its been so long we hang out Surfers. i miss the old us. Where every Sat we would go anywhere, karaokeing, Shishaing, chilling at Pub, Clubbing, Swimming, eating Soup Tulang, going Town. We could be anywhere.. but now, i just dont know how to explain. Everything change. Hope to meet up with everbody one fine day alright guys.

Btw, i dont actually know what to buy over there.
Definitely, a T-Shirt and perhaps dress ?
hmmm. i dont really like my clothes. I need new ones !
haha. Oh yeah! Necklace at DIVA :D

2009-02-08T01:15:00.001+08:00

wan !

friends since Primary 2 :D

his my blogsaver .

thank you !!!!!

2009-02-07T22:45:00.002+08:00

Valentine's Day is in a week time. No ideas getting in my head. Haiyaa. Time fly so fast. Got my hp back. So guys, anything you all can contact me back :D
planning to shop at bugis tomorrow. Currently only Wan and Herda following.
so Surfers, anyone wanna tag along, call me okay.
We are leaving Pasir Ris around 5pm latest ?

Kinda bored, whole day im at home.
Called Hasif but he went to Malaysia today.
So currently, just browsing around ppl's blog and yeahh.
Waiting for bro to be back.
i need to smokkkeee !

till there guys.
:D

2009-02-07T19:07:00.002+08:00

Excuse me for my ugly, incomplete blog.
im not pro in blogging and stuffs.
Sarah, Wan and Faizal.
please online soon.
i need help .
its irritating to see those complicating codes.
ggrr.

2009-02-07T17:52:00.005+08:00

Bridge Leaders Oi !
i told you guys right there's been alot of event lately.
look at the pics aite :D

Happy four months baby !
woooooohhh, its 4 mths.
haha.
i love youu alott ! :D

News Updated
hp CONFISCATED, anything contact Hasif.
Debarred for Examinations (WTH !)

Kechoness . haha .

2009-02-03T15:11:00.002+08:00

im at Hasif house now, with Dan and Afad.
Well, its a very unexpected small reunion.
They are like KARAOKEING now, in this hot hot afternoon.
its quite exciting to have such things lah, but gyeah i need to get back to my PROJECT.
lla project deadline: TOMORROW SHIKIN !

i came for P.E today.
you know i have this fear of heights ( most ppl do lahhh.. )
i need to take this high element thingy where you have to walk at the rope you knnnoowww.
all you need is balancing.
and i shouted at the highest pitch ever.
it was the scariest moment ever.
but yeah !
SHIKIN MANAGED TO OVERCOME HER FEARS BABY !

went home with Rizwan Othman just now.
long time never chat with him..
get to smoke with him.
hehe.

currently listening to i miss you- miley cyrus
lol. im still with dat song :D

p.s. im picking Shahrul up lata !
tata !

Surfers.

2009-02-02T14:07:00.004+08:00

Herda Babbbi- the paling belo one <3
Eeka Dripper - the happy go lucky girl <3
Wan Horny - my 11 years friend <3
Didie Love - my one huggable sister <3
Zea Rapper - all -time sister <3
Sam Chong - my Shopping partner <3
Farah Dreamer - Bully Bully people only ! <3
Zyky Chan- my BabiCore gig lover <3
Faizal Mok- my Drinking and LG buddy <3
Black Demaco - Abg abg oi ! <3
Bobo - my Laughing Machine <3
Eeka Mok- my hotttiiess SIs <3
Ira Baby- Minah Rap aku <3
Danial Nos and Afad - my all time biker's freak <3
Hasif Nitro - my bimboois love partner <3

happy surfers !
reunite us back together can can ?

2009-02-02T13:48:00.004+08:00

There's alot of things i wanna blog about.

perhaps i'll take this little opportunity to list down abit.

Friends.

i havent been spending time with you guys lately.

and im sorry.

ive been working for straight days and i know most of us were busy with their own things right.

we'll spend some time soon ok babes ?

well, here's some old pictures you guys might wanna check out.

HAHA. LOOK AT OUR INNOCENT OLD FACES LAST TIME. LOL.

i miss every single one of surfers alot.

Me.

oh well i gotta new phone. its, K660i.

oh i still miss my 5610!!!

just got a new hair cut today.

wanna see ? hehe

not really much a difference lah. but its much more lighter, thiner :D

actually i look like some typical Chinese girl.

watttt deeeeeeeeee.

BADLUCK .

2009-01-23T11:55:00.002+08:00

im leaving my granny house in 10 minutes time.
but i still havent pack my things yet.
im going to miss her badly,
its not always i can meet her.
its not always i can sleep beside her like i always do last time.
i'll come over some other time granny .
of course, i will :D

22nd of January 2009
a day of hell and badlucks.
i lost my phone .
i lost his original 1GB memory card .
spare phone needed PUK CODE . =..=
im broke .
Someone spoke vulgarities in front of my Juniors. WTH !
lost somebody . ..
Heard something or someone or you know MENGILAI .

things are different for me.
im not the bitchy girl in school anymore.
not an attention seeker or anything.
im just a typical girl in sch,
But some ppls still Call me ShikinBitch in sch.
and i'll correct them .
i hate my past.
i gtg already.
dear god, please make today a much much better day for me .

2009-01-22T22:34:00.002+08:00

i lost my Nokia 5610 phoneee !
omg i feel so dont know what to do.
all important stuffs inside.
pictures, and MUSIC!
OH, YOU KNOW HOW I CANT LIVE WITHOUT MUSIIICCCCCC !

ps. to all surfers,bridge leaders, coralites, loyang-pians, mac cafe, macdonalds, ive changed num, ask me for it.

2009-01-21T21:58:00.002+08:00

ive been at my grandma's house for a few days already.
and daily life changes .
what do i mean by that?
uhuh, let me explain it to you.
every morning , breakfast is already served for me.
air-conditioned room.
comfortable bed.
wireless connection everywhere.
no disturbance.
peace.
no naggings from anyone.
aweeessssssssssssooooooooooooooooommmmmmmmmmmmeeeeeee.
haha. okay shikin lame.
boring tau !

LLA PROJECT DUE ON THE 4TH FEB.
better get starting shikinnnnnnnnnnn !

2009-01-20T00:58:00.002+08:00

a big breakdown for me.
weak, speechless, shy.
it wasnt easy to accept it.
but i cant say anything.
im at fault.
too much chances for me.
and i've misuse every opportunity.

Confused, lost, conquered me.
im a daydreamer.
hoping for things that might not come back.

how i hate my attitude.
how i hate my pampered-ness.
how i hate my laziness.
how i hate everything.
and how much i do hate Shikin.

busy woman.

2009-01-17T14:30:00.002+08:00

4 days ive never been updated.
Jan Orientation .
been skipping classes, got leave form mah ! :D
ive seen more and more minahs and mats.
its like at city hall if you were to step into ite College East.

havent been hanging out lately.
BL thingy always end late .
shout, scream, cheer, run around, everything.
all i wanted to do is just sleep after a hectic day.

im glad its over now, until April.
exam's just around the corner.
have to start mugging soon.

stomach ache for the pass 2 days!
how irritating can it be?
arggghhh!

currently drinking Nescafe,
its just get better everytime i drink it.
muahahahahaha .

boredom fuyoo fuyooooooooooooooooo !
its been 3 days i never meet him!
oh yes if i meet him, i'll hug him like i never do.
i miss himmm !
he's kinda busy lately with his upcoming events, same goes to me.
Sacrificies have to be made right baby ?
hope to see you today .
i love you!

i need sleeping pills man !

2009-01-13T20:37:00.002+08:00

i feel so weak.
and im not pretty sure why.
i didnt do anything sweaty or tiring today.
perhaps my body just need enough rest.
but i need sleeping pills man !

okay, im weak to even type.
so gyeah, update soon.

im missing him badly.

responsibility of mum .

2009-01-12T06:29:00.004+08:00

To be precise, i never need to do house chores. i never need to wash my own clothes, clean the dishes, clean the house, cook, everything ! Sounds fun right ? yes, indeed it is ! But, how long things are gonna be this way ? i dont know how to cook, even to cook a rice needs me to check the cooking book or ask my girlfriends. It sucks when a girl , dont even know what and how to do simple stuffs like that. I dont have a maid, only single mother to do everything for her three children. And i have to say that i do proud to have a strong mother like her.

this short story happen just yesterday and it changed my life wholly.

my mum met with an accident.

she's fine of course but the part i couldnt imagine that it was sooo bad that she flied off from the motorcycle.

she got a deep cut both her legs and hand that it needs to be sew ( or idk what to call ).

it was eerie for me to see the benang ( idk in english call what ), sticking out.

OUCH!

so, she got one week off and all the way she just lay in bed looking so pale and weak.

she cant move her body too much.

so all her responsbility was in me.

which means, i have to takecare of my brothers, me and mum.

i have to be home early to make sure my brothers finished their homeworks.

i have to iron their school clothes.

buy them food.

wake up early in the morning to make breakfast for them.

alot more.

it was tough i have to say.

and mum have been doing this all this years.

it's not that easy that i imagined.

so now i do understand what kind of typical life she have.

she cant spend time outside shopping or clubbing or anything.

and shes still staying strong.

im truly proud of you mum.

thank you for everything.

i love youu !

loads of love,

your daughter .

all i need is you and just you .

2009-01-12T01:57:00.003+08:00

We started as friends , just some normal typical guy friend i had. it had been more than four years we have been friends. Never expected we could go this far. and now, we've been more than three months as love partners. I have to admit its hard to adapt to it baby. i mean having to change my way approaching to you , acting in front of our friends , everything . We do fights over litle things. But, isnt it normal for couples to fight ? without the love and without your support,patience,putting so much trust in me, i dont think we're able to get this far dear. This past three months do make me understand you better, you likes and dislikes. Your personality, almost every single things about you. And i hope you do understand me alot more too .. Being with you is soo much different than being other of my ex's. All they do is doing romantic stuffs and all those typical gf bf kinda shit. you feel me ? Not only you treat me as your gf but also your best friend. and i loike that way. it makes me soo much comfortable with you :D

i hope we last :D

i lovveeee youuu .

2009-01-09T15:56:00.002+08:00

it was a sunny day.
i cant bear to even get out of bed.
didnt go to school.
been bloghopping since just now.
quite a boring day today.

mum's coming home soon.
so, grounded till 9pm.
haiya. feel so tortured.

hoping to meet you today.
to be exact, tonight.
to spend the whole night with you.
perhaps, catching a late night movie?
bowling?
cycling?
hanging out at the beach?
staring at those beautiful night stars?
forget abt it shikin, you re broke .
im never good at planning.
but i wanna be with him tonight.
well i hope he could forgive me.

2009-01-08T20:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder to myself
will i change ?
can i change ?
how to change ?
what to change ?
all those simple questions
bothering me.
and it irritates me
god, please help me change.
for the better.
i want to make my family, friends and you happy.

2009-01-08T20:19:00.000+08:00

its been long since ive updated.
and there's alot of changes in my life.
changing for the better.
in term's of character and attitude.

sometimes i wish i could turn back time.
and mend things back.
but i'll take it as a lesson learnt.
and not to repeat the history again.

somehow i wish you are here.
cos im missing you badly.
and i know its just hard for us.
but all i need.
is you to be always there for me.
insyaallah, things would get better.
3months and 2 days.
may we last long dear.

friends.
i know ive changed.
but always remember
every single one of you.
will always stay in my heart.
and i thank you all for being there
for me till now.

dearest mum.
i know things have been very hard for you
this days.
and im glad that you are still strong .
i know you really care about me.
you dont want me to be a bad child right ?
trust me, i will takecare of myself mum.
i will.

2008-08-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

12 . 08 . 08

speechless. total speechless.

2008-08-10T21:38:00.000+08:00

NATIONAL DAY

okay. here i go again with the surfers. Meet 5pm at mac. but yeah as usual. No one was there. Everyone decided to meet there as all got different plans. So, me, ira and herda go together. we went to roof top just to watch the fireworks. Its fcuking fcuking pack pack at esplanade. So, all we got to do is push and push people. Fuck care lah sia. hahaha. while eating at roof top marina, suddenly got fireworks. Me and ira rush to the crowd to see the fireworks. Beautiful!! Later, went up to meet bobo and his friends, farah and mates, ikek , wan and eeka. Later, kiki came along but went off like dat. Dont know lah. lalalalala, we proceed back to pasir ris. And, bought some foods and DURIANS! HAHAHA. Ate at seashell park. Later on we decided to play all kind of stupid games, such as chop chilli chop thingy and the mac thingy lahh. So FUN! L.E joined us at seashell park also. Went home like ard 5 liddat. So yahh, lazy to tell you guys, so here's the pictures.

2008-08-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

hey !! the two days had been great for me. Its been like ages since i saw the surfeerrs. And yeah, its like a miracle reunion ! (: We first celebrated ikek ikek birthday at beach road at 12am. wth. there's like 24 ppl altogether. Alot alot of bashing for her. Eggs, flour, cake, sup tulang. ikek den wanted to take revenge on me for throwing the flour that day, so we all ran like hell. make alot alot nuisance. wtf. hahaha. so, for further information, do look at the pictures okehh..

Den later, we proceed to shishaing at arab street. Most of us were underage. hahaa, but we all like step mane pe besar. hahaha. we played true or dare. HHAHHA. We are seriously a seeker attention at the time. Which is like ard 2 am? hahaa

and this is the part that i kene dare. wth. busted sia they all.

2008-08-08T17:32:00.000+08:00

SAY GOODBYE; CHRIS BROWN

Look we gotta talk
Dang I know
I know it's just
It's just...
Some things I gotta get of my chest alright....
Yeahhhh...
Whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, oh, whoa...
Listen..

Baby come here and sit down, let's talk
I got a lot to say so I guess I'll start by
Saying that I love you,
But you know, this thing ain't been
No walk in the park for us
I swear it'll only take a minute
You'll understand when I finish, yeah
And I don't wanna see you cry
But I don't wanna be the one to tell you a lie so

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Everything I tried to remember to say
Just went out my head
So I'ma do the best I can to get you to understand
'cause I know

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you, it's me
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Girl I know your heart is breaking
And a thousand times I
Found myself asking, "Why? Why?"
Why am I taking so long to say this?
But trust me, girl I never
Meant to crush your world
And I never
Thought I would see the day we grew apart
And I wanna know

[Hook]
How do you let it go? When you,
You just don't know? What's on,
The other side of the door
When you're walking out, talk about it
Girl I hope you understand
What I'm tryna say.
We just can't go on
Pretending that we get along
Girl how you not gonna see it?

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
I, I just can't do it
Listen to your heart
Girl you know,
We should be apart, baby I
I just can't do it
And sometimes it makes me wanna cry
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh [4x]
Do you hear me crying?
Oh, oh, oh [4x]

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

[Chorus]
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But I gotta make the first move
'Cause if I don't you gonna start hating me
Cause I really don't feel the way I once felt about you
Girl it's not you it's me.
I kinda gotta figure out what I need (oh)
There's never a right time to say goodbye
But we know that we gotta go
Our separate ways
And I know it's hard but I gotta do it,
And it's killing me
Cause there's never a right time
Right time to say goodbye

This song is dedicated from him to me. I know i wont stand a chance. But this songs, realises me how badly he wants us to be just friends.